Posted by Cortland On 4:03 PM
I have not been consistent with this blog. I"m sorry.
It's been a busy month, and while I have made vast improvements in many areas of my life, I have been unable to stay up with my witting. I'm gonna take another run at this whole daily blogging thing however.

I think that it is just that. Over the past couple months I have dedicated myself to growth in a few different areas. I quit smoking and decided that I wanted to take better care of my mind, my home, and my body. There has been many things I've taken on in order to do just that. Whether it be push ups, dishes, cleaning my room, or running. If I miss one day it is hard for me to stay up with doing it.

Whether it is doing one push up, jogging around one block, doing one load of laundry, picking up one thing off my floor, or washing one extra dish I must be consistent in doing it daily.
I don't necessarily think that this is a truth for all people. I've known many people who are very disciplined who can cheat or fudge a day and still carry on with the same consistency as before. I however am not that type of person.
Maybe someday.

It was high school:
when you could never be liked by all men. Hell, we all tried. At least to be liked by the cool kids I guess. But anymore, who are the cool kids? Even the nerds in some sectors are seen as cool. Theater kids are cool to the artsy kids, but the jocks think they're dweebs. The jocks are cool to some, but seen by others as a representation of the establishment that they resist. You could never be liked by them all. Even Kevin, the tuba playing football star who acted in all the school plays. Even he was hated by some groups of purists on either sides of this social scope.

I thought in high school that this was the way the world worked. I thought that we were destined to be pigeon holed and hated by someone. I almost took this philosophy into my post high school days, but I was reluctant. "This couldn't be how the world worked," I thought. Adults must have more clear cut rules about what is right, wrong, cool, uncool, successful, and not.

Sadly though I have come to hold this truth to be self evident, "that there will always be someone who disagrees with you. There will always be someone who thinks you're wrong and believes that they are right. It will happen. I promise.

Throughout the last year of my life I've had to work through some major issues of entering my adult life. I've had to set terms for the man that I'm going to be, and adjust my priorities to match. There is a book that I am reading now titled "real men don't apologize," It has been great fun to read through the humorous and rather hilarious musings of Jim Belushi on the subject of manhood. One thing that as I read resounded amazingly with me was the subject of setting terms for yourself or "Reasons for living." Around these terms he says you prioritize your life and passions as a man. I think this has shown itself to be so true for me. I had to ask myself in a real and honest way what I wanted out of life and what I want to do with my life. I had to then adjust my priorities to match. Obviously living past 30 is a for sure goal and therefore smoking a pack a day had to be brought to the chopping block.

I think that it can be fiercley intimidating for people to grow. To Set terms and adjust your life it takes a lot of changing. It honestly is no pretty thing to grow. It causes conflict with in yourself and can cause it in your relationships as well. I feel like this is where most people settle in and can become stagnant.

lame analogies:
Muscles don't grow unless they are torn
A plant will not be healthy unless it is pruned
People can not grow without conflict

I believe it is different for everyone. Maybe your growth will strain a relationship with a family member, or maybe it will cause you to be seen in a bad light by some. Maybe it will cause you to be missunderstood, maybe it will cost you a friendship. It could cost you a lifestyle, or even posessions.
but know two things
it will cost you
it will be worth it

LIVE
LOVE
YHWH
~cortland

1 Response to ' '

  1. Anonymous Said,
    http://cortlandthomas.blogspot.com/2008/10/i-have-not-been-consistent-with-this.html?showComment=1223304240000#c8671442692399009397'> October 6, 2008 at 7:44 AM

    very wise my friend