Looks Good on Paper

Hey all,
Sadly now you all know how God feels most of the time (waiting for me to write something).....sometimes I imagine what he thinks about as he watches me carry around my bible and journal for days never bothering to crack them open.

I have learned something however, during my crippled walk with God, and that is, no matter how much I feel unmotivated, uninspired, and detached from my spiritual walk. If I tune in and make an effort to spend time with my God I can instantly be spoken to. God has never stood back to see if i kept coming. Every time I seek him I have found him. It is almost enough to make you take it all for granted.

In the past few weeks of my life I have been through a strange series of experiences. I have had emotional peaks and long periods of emotionless living. I have had periods of incredible endurance going into short spurts of exhaustion. I have been inspired to live with a more positive outlook knowing that I am capable of doing great and amazing things. I have also been humbled and brought to the realization that I still have flaws and selfish desires.
Honestly I haven't quite figured out what all these things mean, or how I am supposed react to these experiences. But what I do know is that I'm on to something and when I find out what it is I'll let you know
~cortland